If you are a fan of new musicals, then you will have recognized that this title is from "Legally Blonde: The Musical". If you liked the movie you're going to like the musical, but if you didn't like the movie...well then you just should stay away from anything that says "Legally Blonde" in it, shouldn't you? But in all seriousness, I'm being serious for once. Sometimes you just need a pensive blog, something on the internet that has your name on it that means...something. So here we go, making it pensive.
I've always heard that no one is perfect, but I've never really believed it, I mean, just look at everyone! Those people you see walking past you, don't they seem like they have it all together? Like their life is going just super awesome and the next time they buy something they'll get it for free because they're the 1 millionth customer. And those students who sit in the library, they're there constantly and yet, they're complaining about their grades. It all boils down to communication, folks, and understanding your fellow man.
Listening has never really been one of my strong suits, and I'm sure it all goes back to my childhood when I would use selective hearing. Somehow this morphed into a terrible disease called day-dreaming, and that gets me into a lot of trouble. Day-dreaming is fine, except when you're paying a ridiculous amount of money to be sitting in a classroom listening to someone speak, then day-dreaming is VERY bad. When you day-dream you miss out on the conversation, and the chance to hear what your fellow students and your professor are saying. Listening to these thoughts is so important because from what they say, you can learn so much about people.
When it comes to serious discussion, I try not to have it too often. Heaven forbid I should tell someone something personal about myself, perhaps they will use it against me in the future! But when you don't let down your guard, no one gets to know the real you, and you miss out on some awesome experiences. This really hit me recently as I've been going through some god-awful growing pains stuff. I will say it, college is awesome but it wreaks havoc on everything you ever knew. It's also very expensive, and that brings all kinds of stress. And this is the stress you want to be able to talk with others about, and not be afraid that they will judge you for it. I don't know why, but we are always putting up a front for people that have almost nothing to do with us. The only person that fools is you, and that doesn't do anyone any good.
I've found that it is most difficult to be honest with yourself. Who wants to admit that they are overweight? To actually look at yourself and say (non-jokingly), I am fat and need to lose weight. It's so much easier to lie to yourself and say, No I'm fine, my body is fine. Lying comes much easier than the truth because it assuages the worries we have. How lovely to say that you're just fine, even though on the inside you don't know how you're going to drag yourself through another day.
What I am saying is, I've lied to myself a lot and it's a goal of mine to stop doing that. In order to become a better person (but not that perfect one millionth customer), you have to be honest with yourself so you can show everyone the best version of you. One of my best versions of me happens when I'm working and making sandwiches. I work at the college's dining services and I make sandwiches for the people. When I'm working I feel cheerful as I ask them what they want on their sandwich. It's a simple enough job, but I add my own twist when I'll occasionally draw pictures or smiley faces in the sauce of their choice. I feel like I'm giving them a part of myself, and that's a part that I hope can brighten their day. Nothing can make you happier than knowing you've made someone else happy.
In conclusion, don't lie to yourself, listen to other people, make happy sandwiches, and remember that nothing lasts forever and the sun will shine again soon. Here ends my pensive blog, and I hope it has made you thoughtful and maybe even slightly melancholic (I find that to be a most pleasant kind of sad).
